Posts made in April, 2016

Blog #42: Write or Wrong

Blog #42: Write or Wrong

I should be working on my novel… (Yes—this is one of those deals where I should be doing all sorts of other things, and instead I’m writing a blog about how I’m not doing those things anyway… Sorry.) Also, I need to cut my fingernails. Uh! The incessancy of life… We do and we do and we do—and yet it all just needs doing again! I’m just not in the mood for it. Or anything really just now… methinks… Butanyhoo—and, so, mine ‘ovel… sigh~ Oh, well. It just hasn’t been going well. Why is that?—you may ask… (if anyone were actually reading this…) Well, I just don’t know. I suppose it’s as simple as my head just isn’t in it. (And/or I keep finding other things to do to avoid working on it?) And my second novel, The Telemachy… yeah, then there’s that. I sent it to a publisher (Penguin: Ace division thereof) back in October, five month response time… no response in March—so I queried… no response to that—and now another month and a half has passed… And I have yet to send it anywhere else. What the hell?! Well, there’s this thing… ego… and on the one hand, it impels me to try to succeed (commercially—because I’m an American, and greedy, self-absorbed materialism is more important than God… and/or IS our God)—thus I should try to submit it and have it published and make lots of money and get fan mail to stroke my already overblown ego (because, let’s face it, who the hell am I that I think I need the world to see the wise and witty and all-powerful, immaculate, consummate glory of mine words!!!?)… Or I can write for my own benefit: because I like creating characters and fantastical lands—and sometimes stumble onto some semblance of a story in which to use said characters and lands… and simply for mine own peace of mind. But why go putting it off on everybody else? (Especially since most of everybody else has strongly indicated they just don’t bloody care—and that’s fine… it’s my brain, and no one else need impinge him or herself within it.) And I can even continue to go the self-publishing route—put it out there for those who might be interested, but then just get on with… whatever. Spiritual fulfillment—sans the soul-corrupting influences of a wayward, overly-capitalistic, greedy, self-absorbed, short-sighted, small-minded, (etc.) society....

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